On August 23rd we celebrated Holly Cottle's 4th birthday.
It is hard to come up with words to describe how I feel about her life and death. Her passing changed my perspective on many things. It makes me sad that Lexie, Nick and Holland's sisters have to live without her. It also feels weird and wrong to talk about how her death affects me because it is so totally not about me.
Anyway, her birthday is usually happy because we get to send off balloons and my girls look forward to it. But I think it's also okay that her birthday makes me sad too.
In a funny coincidence, one of Elise's other best friends has the exact same birthday as Holland, so I can very clearly imagine what it would be like if Holly and Lou got to be friends right now.





















































